dude, im sorry to hear about your loss. i know he lived a good life and i know he cared for you as much as you cared for him. my cat is getting up there in age and when i see her struggle to do something or if she seems weak i always have to take a deep breath and relax. i lost a cat before having my current cat and i too cried like a little girl but i didnt care, i loved that cat. i'm glad your cat was in the hands of great owners.