I hate dreaming about Paintball. I wake up, and realize that I can no longer play. It makes me so depressed. Today, I would have been going to AG Paintball for Slim's Spring Game. I wake up to great disappointment. Wishing I could just hurry up and finally die. Ankylosing Spondylitis robbed me of my life.
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Man, thats hard to read. I looked up Ankylosing Spondylitis and it sounds like an agonizing ailment.
Is it so bad that you cant drive out to Slims today? I honestly get just as much if not more out of talking in the pits than I do playing. Id say if you can handle getting there, maybe go to slims and just be around the scene. It may help with the depression.
And or would plinking stuff in the back yard give you any pleasure? I know I enjoy it.
I have Hypertrophic Cardiomyapathy. Which doesn't cause any pain per say, but I thought life was over when I was diagnosed. I now have a defibrillator on my ribcage. I did quit ball for a while in fear of taking hits in my unit, and or having a heart attack. I have since had a jersey made with a sewn in pad over my defibrillator.
I don't know your full situation, but as life changes our abilities, we can attack some of our passions from a different angle.Comment
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Not on my watch motherducker. You made the first move by reaching out. That takes allot of guts just to realize. You play paintball. You’re one of the good guys. Nobody plays forever.
Check out the occulus VR headset for paintball.
Get out to the field if you are able, talk to people. Tell them about your situation. Push yourself. Pop off some paint where you live if your able to, or check out air rifles. Write down what happens in your dreams, keep a dream journal. It will help get it out of your head. You’re not alone. You’re never alone.
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Thanks for the support guys. I really appreciate it.Comment
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If I was anywhere near this event I'd kidnap you and drive you myself.
Time with the boys is literally the best therapy I know.
I'm no stranger to ugly health problems but AS is a shit hand to be dealt.Comment
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I can only play because I'm a cyborg - my spinal cord stimulator was life changing. 10000hz direct to my spinal cord has been a blessing. I still have pain, but I can manage it, and the worst of the neuropathic issues are seriously abated. I don't know if you've looked into them or talked with your docs about them as an option.Originally posted by CarpOriginally posted by HeadshottedComment
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My wife has AS. She's pretty young so it hasn't progressed that far but it still makes her life a lot less fun than it should be. Sorry to hear you're facing it too.Comment
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I feel for you man. I miss having you out at the field pretty badly too. You're one of the ones who took me under wing from time to time when I was just getting into the sport, and I would not be the player I am today if you hadn't been one of the ones running circles around me the times you had. I would kill to have another good scrap with you out in the woods, though you'd probably shoot me in the ass on a dead man's walk again.Comment
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as someone said before; dont stop but rather change direction a little.
i know NOTHING of that disease so forgive my ignorance moving forward.
im just getting into film photography and car detailing. when i was younger (and no kids), i was a different person. after kids, i feel like im losing myself, becoming "less me". cant do the things i used to and still be a responsible parent lol.
i used to travel the north east cost mountain biking. my downhill rig was set up just for me, PUSH tuned sus' and all... i "downgraded" to an enduro rig to broaden my terrain. Replaced everything but the fame and fork. i have not ridden that bike (or any other bike) in over 6 years...
i used to collect and restore older kingman spyders. id even replace the fasteners if they weren't correct. i havent picked up a project marker in over 6 years...
had a corvette, now i drive a mazda 3...
so i pivoted slightly and picked up a few different hobbies. i appreciate cars and although i cant go back to a corvette any time soon, i still get enjoyment out of washing / detailing them. (even the mazda).
i loved the customization and personal details mountain bikers put into their bikes and although i wont be riding downhill any time soon, i get enjoyment out out of putting personal touches on the photos i take.
try not to focus on what you CANT do but rather different things you CAN do.
drone footage and photos during a paintball game is really cool. have you given any thought about getting into drones and/or paintball photography?
maybe just drones in general, RC boats/cars, idk im not familiar with your current hobbies to offer many suggestions.
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Last night I dreamt I was at some air ball turf field. All the paint looked like Tide pods or shriveled prunes. I complained to someone working at the field who was rolling their eyes that I cared about paint quality.Comment
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